My Goals

I have a list of goals in my mind that I want to accomplish before this year is over. I know 2010 has a long way to go before it's over, but with me you just never know how long things might take. So I think if I write out exactly what I want to get done, I will be able to to actually do them. Right now all my ideas are stuck in my head and I have no clear thought process, so that's why I feel so overwhelmed most of the time. I want to do so many things, but I don't know what to do first, or how to get started. So without procrastinating some more, here are my goals:

Of course since I just graduated college, I really would like to find a job in my field. I don't want any more unpaid internships or websites that want to pay me in free stuff. I need money. So I have to stay diligent and keep looking for jobs every day.

I wanted to start a business online that would ensure that I had money while I wait until I find a job. I need to think of a good product that will sell, write a sales pitch, and design a cover for it.

I want to be crafty and be able to make a profit for it, so I want to make my own jewelry and try and sell it. Granted, this is a market that won't be very lucrative, but it will feel rewarding. Plus I'm hoping my first online business will be enough to cover me for my jewelry making.

I came up with an idea to write my own comic book. I have always been a comic book fan and it would be great if I can write my own. I've already come up with the premise, the characters, and the location, and with the help of one of my friends, we've been getting into the design. I have very little drawing skills so that part will have to be left up to my friend, but I have to get cracking on the manuscript.

So these are all the projects I have lined up in my mind, if only I could get enough motivation to start doing them. It's not really a lack of time, skill, or money, it's a lack of will that I've been fighting. Right now I feel like I want to break through these walls and do something worth doing! I just feel like I'm mentally and physically frozen...but I'm feeling that heat, so I'm hoping to break free any minute.

LOST Final Season Retrospect

When this season of Lost started it looked like this universe was a much happier one for our beloved passengers of flight 815. There was no plane crash, Hurley has had only good luck since his lottery win, and there is no Shannon (sorry girl but your attitude is not wanted). However, first episode aside, this season has been filled with moral dilemmas that seem to be testing the characters to see if they will revert back to who they were on the island or to see if they truly are better off having never crashed.

In last week's episode we see that Ben Linus is no longer an evil mastermind, but a lowly high school History teacher who cares more about the students than the principal. With a helpful suggestion from substitute teacher, John Locke, Ben tries to go after the principal position. Now while the Ben we are more familiar with would have no problem manipulating people to do what he wants, this Ben does. Even when he finds out from his favorite student/former island daughter, Alex, that the principal is having an affair with the school nurse, he's hesitant to go through with the blackmail. The major difference in the two Ben's is that alt world Ben actually thinks of others before himself. He very well could have had that principal position like he wanted, but he chose Alex's happiness over his own. The episode is very bittersweet because while he does seem to be a better man in this universe, he's not happier. If anything, what we've learned from this season so far is that all of these people have problems no matter what universe they're in.

While in hindsight it looked like the island was nothing but a crazy dysfunctional island of chaos, it actually did a lot of good. Without the island, how can Jin become a loving and caring husband? Is he now doomed to be a stressed, angry, sterile husband? Locke will never be able to walk again, Rose will continue to have cancer, and what will happen to Walt?

In this week's episode we finally see a positive change for a character in the alternative universe. We first see Sawyer in bed with a woman once again running his money con, but the twist here is that he's not trying to steal her money, he's trying to arrest her. Ladies and gentleman, Sawyer is now James Ford the cop. In this world he's on the right side of the law with Miles as his partner making this a great buddy cop TV series. While he's a working class citizen now, he's still not happy because he's still plagued by the trauma of his parent's murder suicide caused by the con man Sawyer got his name from. On the island he was able to get his closure and finally kill his demon like he always planned to, here he's still hunting for Anthony Cooper/Sawyer/Locke's dad. So is he better off being a lonely cop still on the hunt for revenge or a surly con man devastated by constantly losing the people he loved?

Well what is happiness anyway? Maybe the whole point of all of this is to show that all of these people can never be happy. They're doomed to be miserable and changing details around isn't going to make a difference. Aww now doesn't that just warm your heart? Maybe they should just release the polar bears again to kill them all.

Orphan Movie Review: That is One Sassy Chick

Oh, horror and suspense films! How you try to still scare and shock us. Since it feels like we have seen it all, movies always try to go for the 1-up. Sometimes this ends up lame, other times successful...and other times completely laughable. This is the case for the movie, Orphan.

With a very disturbing scene of childbirth to kick off, we meet Jon and Kate, a couple with two children who recently had the misfortune of having their third child stillborn. With this death, it has put alot of trouble on Kate who takes pills every morning and still struggles with the temptation of alcohol as a recovering addict. Jon is just there, he gives support when Kate needs it, but we find out that he also has brought some problems to this marriage in the form of cheating. This story is sounding very familiar...Jon and Kate's just don't work out.

So even though they have a pre-pubescent son, and a young deaf, daughter, they still feel a void from the child they were suppose to have, so they go adopting. There they meet Ester, a sweet looking 9 year old with a charming accent, and an old fashion sense. Of course everything is good at first, but then things start going wrong. She doesn't fit in well with kids, her new half brother is embarrassed to be related to her, and she has occasional violent outbursts.

As the movie goes along she becomes progressively more violent and scary, and it becomes clear she isn't bonding well with her new mommy. Awww, but it's nice that she has a special place in her heart for her daddy. The big twist in the movie, also known as Ester's secret, is one that you really don't see coming. I can't decide if it's brilliant or just damn hysterical! I'll give the movie credit for doing something that isn't so predictable, but it makes the movie more of a comedy than a suspense.

Product Review: Banjees

Need a place to put all your things when you go out, but just don’t know where? Ladies are you in luck, because now you can use Banjees, the fashion wrist wallet. This stretchable, spandex item resembles a wrist warmer and has a pocket with a zipper so you can store small items. The “fashionable” part is that they come in lots of cute designs that girls will love like floral patterns and sequins, and the really nice touch is that they’re reversible. So just slip it on your wrist and off you go! The problem is that this product boasts that it can “store your cash, keys, id, and a lip stick in the zippered pouch”, but there is no way it can unless your items are the size of Barbie’s accessories. The pocket size is just big enough to hold a card, and because the material is made thin, the pocket can only go so deep. We carry bags for a reason; they look nice, have big pockets, and no one can tell what’s inside. Sure Banjees look nice, but unless the items you put in are paper-thin, the stretchy fabric shows everyone exactly what you have inside, that’s not very fashionable.

TV Commentary: Secret Life of the American Teen

Last night I had the displeasure of watching "The Secret Life of the American Teen". What looked to me as a very long PSA mixed with one of those lame after school specials, turned out to be the stupidest show on TV for young teens. This show started out as a story about a young teen, Amy, goes away to band camp and has sex with this guy, Ricky, then finds out she's pregnant conveniently right at the beginning of the school year. So right away you think this is a show to educate teens about the dangers of sex and to force religion down their young impressionable throats. That's fine, our teens do need sex education. The problem? The script, the acting, the story lines, are all utterly lame. In fact, I think they're sending the wrong message to our youth.

In last night's episode the focus was on a girl named Grace who was beside herself with guilt because she was convince she killed her dad because she had sex and enjoyed it. I'm not going to even stop and break down how stupid that is. She then goes on to blame the guy she had sex with, who then blames the girl he lost his virginity to. Can you believe that? A guy trying to call the girl a whore because she slept with him, and his reason was because if he didn't have sex in the first place, he wouldn't have wanted more. So the message so far is, don't have sex because you can kill your parents.

Now let's look at the title of the show, The Secret Life of the American Teen. What exactly is the secret life? It can't be having sex because it looks like everyone knows who's doing who...including the parents. We have the lead character, Amy, who since having sex that one time and becoming pregnant looks like she was sucked dry of personality. Plus we have to be clear that she did not enjoy sex! Then we have the character, Adrian, who is suppose to be the slut of the school since she kept saying in one episode, "It's not my fault I like sex!". Let's forget talking about Grace since she's still crying about her dead dad, and forget all the guys too because there is nothing really interesting about them. Well maybe how bad Ben's acting is...He sounds like he's 40 and has the intensity of a rapist. So yeah, there is nothing secret about these teens.

I mean if the point of this show is to teach teens about the dangers of sex, why is it that every scene has them talking about sex. It's nonstop sex talk on this show like that's all teens do. In fact, you could make a drinking game about how many times the word "sex" is said and get very wasted. So their solution to the teen sex epidemic is to show that all teens do is talk about it? It's all very confusing. So first they teach that if you have sex you're going to become pregnant, yet the school slut doesn't have a baby or any STDs. Then they make the deeply religious girl have sex and have her dad die as a punishment. Maybe they'll have her get pregnant to so they can drive home the message that good girls can't have sex because then they'll get pregnant. I guess if you're already a slut, being known as one is your only punishment. Of course for the guys there is no lesson because we still have these double standards when it comes to sex. What's worse is that they don't place a lot of focus on contraceptives. They just like preaching religion and repercussions, and scare tactics are horrible ways to teach teens about important stuff.

Finally let's move on to the "American Teen" part, how is anything they're doing different from the teens across the globe? Shows like Skins and Degrassi have teens doing much wilder things and they're from Britain and Canada. The whole title of this show is just senseless and long. Here's a better title, "The Crusade to Promote Abstinence-Only Education", now that's catchy!

Ayurveda Cafe Review

I was looking for a nice Indian place to eat at during my lunch break from work. After coming across many expensive, trendy places, I found a very different type of place. The Ayurveda Cafe on 706 Amsterdam Ave in NYC is a vegetarian Indian restaurant that serves meals based on a belief that every meal should have six different tastes. Their menu has only one pre-set meal that they serve and it changes every day. So I walk into the place and the first thing I see is a shrine of Indian gods and pamphlets about what they believe. I quickly grab one and pick a table at the front of the place to sit. All I had to do was pick a drink and choose between white or brown rice, and that was it. It was very refreshing not to have to stare at a menu and think about what's the right thing to order while an overbearing waitress looks over you.

The meal itself was placed on a large metal dish with rice and five little saucers containing five different foods. Each dish was suppose to represent something sweet, salty, sour, bitter, pungent, and astringent. I was wondering where the sixth dish was, but I would later find out that it would be for dessert. I tried to figure out which dish was suppose to be what taste, but it all blended together after a while.

The first dish was green and tasted like a spinach concoction, the second was chick peas in an orange sauce, the third was yogurt that had something orange in it, the fourth was like a tiny salad with fresh carrots, lettuce, and cabbage, and the fifth was lentils in a spicy sauce. Even though I wasn't really sure what I was eating, I didn't mind and I found it all very filling. When I ate all I could, they took my plate away and put a small dish in front of me. It had strands of what tasted like coconut in a sweet powder, it was very good. When the bill came, it was only about $15 for a six-course meal and a lemonade. For New York, that lunch is pretty cheap!

A Fight Against Obesity: The International Food Challenge

We are an obese nation, the average are getting fat and the fat are getting fatter. Michelle Obama has recently said,

"Nearly a one third of American children are either overweight or obese, and a third will suffer from diabetes at some point in their lifetime".

This sad fact made me want to do something for myself and find out why for others. I don't want to be another fat number in their statistics, so I decided to try out a study.

My theory is that Americans are fat because everything in the American diet is making us fat. I know, not so original because people have said this stuff before. Still, I will personally test this theory by completely changing my eating habits. This means I will no longer eat pizza, hot dogs, burgers, and fast food, all things popular in an American diet. Instead, I started yesterday eating only International food. So I will eat Chinese, Japanese, Indian, Vietnamese...who knows maybe I'll find places with more exotic food.

I will continue this to see if it has an effect on my weight and health. I know changing your diet alone is not the solution to losing weight, but trying to lose weight on the American diet has not gotten me anywhere. So with this international diet, mixed with exercise, I'll see if there is a difference.

There will be some ground rules and exceptions to this though. First, this will not really change what I drink, because that's harder to do, and I am not giving up caffeine. Hello, look at the name of this blog! Second, it will be very hard and costly to eat international when I'm home. So, I can eat the groceries that are in my house as long as it is something I have to prepare. This does not mean making Chef Boyardee, Hot Pockets, or any other pre-made frozen TV dinner.

The reason for this is because I want to be able to work for my food. I think another reason why this country is so obese is because we have such easy access to fatty foods. We get hungry, we could make chicken breast with some vegetables, but we want something fat so we microwave a frozen White Castle burger. I mean, this has made us lazy too, which doesn't help obesity.

So in my quest to change being just another lazy, fat, American, I hope I can use this study to show people that it's not too late. We can change if we truly want to.